you want to do WHAT the rest of your life?!

SO, as of lately, I've been trying to figure out what I want to do in terms of careers and things. 

Now, I can already hear you saying "You're only 19, you can go to school and figure it out! Don't stress!"

Well, I'm taking a break from school and on top of that, you go to college to figure it out. So no, college isn't the answer for this one. 

My grandfather and I had a lunch the other day where we talked about what I was thinking about doing and how I just needed to think about it a little.... and I have.

I want to be a piercer.

Now, I know how this seems a little flighty, dreamy, unrealistic and impractical. But when it comes to what I want, this is it.

I've considered the alternatives, X-ray Tech, Social Work, Medical Assistant, Receptionist, Teacher..... and every time I've pictured myself there, I was miserable. None of them spark my interest, none of them get me excited or make me smile. In fact, I fear and loathe the day I will have to tell someone I have a mondane job that I can't express myself in any way, shape or form.

I've thought about the alternative alternatives; nail tech, massage therapist, hairdresser, graphic designer, struggling artist.... but as much as I enjoy these things, I enjoy them because I'm not forced to do them, I enjoy them because it's MY way of unwinding, getting AWAY from work. I don't think I'd feel the same if I HAD to do them in order to make a living. Which brings us back to;;

I want to be a piercer!

Nothing sparks my interests like the misunderstood world of tattoos and piercings. 

The artwork one decides to adorn their body with will never cease to amaze me. 

You may be asking, "but Francesca, then why don't you just become a piercer?"

Dear, dear reader, if only it were that simple.

I haven't talked to my family about it yet, but I can only imagine the conversation. 

"Franki, that isn't a CAREER" "Not under THIS roof you aren't" "I'm not allowing you to poke a bunch of holes in your face" "Do you know what kind of people are piercers?" "You are not going to disappoint us again."

Yep, that sounds about right. 

I'm terrified of even bringing it up to my parents, especially my mother. I don't know how to explain the passion I have for this stuff. Body Modification is something I hold dear to my heart and I'm not sure if they'd understand that. It's my favorite form of expression. It's visual, and it's a part of you. 

Now, what the hell do I do?